Thursday, January 15, 2009

Why does this empty womb leave everything else feeling so empty sometimes?

At the expense of sounding like a whiner.... here I go....

In my flesh and in my own power, this journey seems absolutely impossible. I can't control the fact that an egg can not make it into my uterus in order for me to get pregnant (well, with the help of science, but we're just not going there). And where the heck is the money going to come from for an adoption? I currently don't have an income. The income we currently have blesses us to cover our expenses.

Does the Lord even want us to continue on this road? We haven't even gotten started and here I am... doubting. I don't want to limit the Lord but I keep limiting Him!

Here we are, with our map and ready for the journey but we're missing a lot of essentials to continue. I could really use some encouragement and prayer.
Just to lay out the basics....
Application: $250
Home study: $2000 (In order to apply for grants and assistance, the home study needs to be complete)
Consulting Agency: $2500
this website will lay out some other costs... the big costs
In addition, we're looking at travel expenses to another state for at least 10 days.
I'm sure that there are various other expenses that will occur in this journey.

And with all those numbers, I know that the Lord is FAR bigger... that these numbers are finite to Him. But I just find myself overwhelmed and questioning, doubting... is this really going to happen? Are we going to be parents? Is this the Lord's will for us?

This is where we stand. Thank you for standing with us.

Please remember us in your prayers.


  1. Have you looked into embryo adoption. If your tubes are blocked and you desire to carry a pregnancy this could be an option for you. Its just a thought.

  2. We've discussed embryo adoption. It's really not an option for us. In order for me to carry a pregnancy, both of my tubes will need to be cut out. It's not the route we want to go at this point.
    Thank you for the suggestion.

  3. Vanessa, about the travel expenses, I have some thoughts . . . Do you think you would be flying or driving? If you need to fly, maybe we can get the word out to see if people would be willing to donate their miles. Hotel miles too. I'd be happy to give you whatever I have, and to campaign on your behalf. What do you think?