At the expense of sounding like a whiner.... here I go....
In my flesh and in my own power, this journey seems absolutely impossible. I can't control the fact that an egg can not make it into my uterus in order for me to get pregnant (well, with the help of science, but we're just not going there). And where the heck is the money going to come from for an adoption? I currently don't have an income. The income we currently have blesses us to cover our expenses.
Does the Lord even want us to continue on this road? We haven't even gotten started and here I am... doubting. I don't want to limit the Lord but I keep limiting Him!
Here we are, with our map and ready for the journey but we're missing a lot of essentials to continue. I could really use some encouragement and prayer.
Just to lay out the basics....
Home study: $2000 (In order to apply for grants and assistance, the home study needs to be complete)
Consulting Agency: $2500
this website will lay out some other costs... the big costs http://christianadoption.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2009-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&updated-max=2010-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&max-results=3
In addition, we're looking at travel expenses to another state for at least 10 days.
I'm sure that there are various other expenses that will occur in this journey.
And with all those numbers, I know that the Lord is FAR bigger... that these numbers are finite to Him. But I just find myself overwhelmed and questioning, doubting... is this really going to happen? Are we going to be parents? Is this the Lord's will for us?
This is where we stand. Thank you for standing with us.
Please remember us in your prayers.