God has been teaching me do much about who He is lately. This, in turn, has opened and continues to open my eyes to my pride, unbelief and fears. Whew! I am a mess. A messy mess at that {major understatement}! And the beauty of Christ is that He loves all of me and my messy messiness. He takes me just as I am. He knows I need more than just quick fixes and some fruit here and there. I need to gaze upon His holiness every moment I can. I need to adore Him and humble myself before my Creator {instead of the so many idols that beckon and call and trip me up}. In the hardness of this world, I need Him to guard my heart and keep it soft. I just need Christ.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Joy in waiting. Yes, joy!
As of today, we are just waiting for the supervisor to approve the home study that our case worker put together. Everything else is ready.
After approval, our family profiles will be presented to potential birth families. This could take days, weeks, months or years. It is the Lord's timing and I trust that He knows better than I ever will.
This time, and I am just being honest, I am more anxious about the reality of a baby being in the home (and juggling two children) than I am the waiting part. But again I rest in Christ and just hope I am a bit wiser and more humble this time around.
Prayers are welcome, as always.
Let this joyful time of waiting begin . . .
After approval, our family profiles will be presented to potential birth families. This could take days, weeks, months or years. It is the Lord's timing and I trust that He knows better than I ever will.
This time, and I am just being honest, I am more anxious about the reality of a baby being in the home (and juggling two children) than I am the waiting part. But again I rest in Christ and just hope I am a bit wiser and more humble this time around.
Prayers are welcome, as always.
Let this joyful time of waiting begin . . .
Sunday, June 3, 2012
More
I can't believe how long it has taken us to put our family profile together this time. Last time it took a while, but I don't remember it taking THIS long! Life moves faster when you have a child but projects certainly take longer. And that is just fine with me.
Hopefully, we will order them this week. And from there, we are moving unto another puzzle fundraiser. More updates to come . . .
slowly . . .
Hopefully, we will order them this week. And from there, we are moving unto another puzzle fundraiser. More updates to come . . .
slowly . . .
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Round 2
Last night we submitted our formal application to Bethany for our 2nd child.
For the one or two super-duper, amazing, wonderful people who may read my periodic posts, I would like to ask for your prayer and rejoicing.
In Christ,
Daniel, Vanessa and Kadence
For the one or two super-duper, amazing, wonderful people who may read my periodic posts, I would like to ask for your prayer and rejoicing.
In Christ,
Daniel, Vanessa and Kadence
Monday, November 14, 2011
Quick update
I don't see how people maintain their blogs daily - or even regularly. I guess if you are getting paid for it then there is incentive.
Quick update:
Kadence is 15 months. She is in the 90th percentile for both height and weight.
She amazes me everyday with what she knows. She is mimicing our words. She likes to help out with cleaning and feeding the chickens. It's the process! She enjoys music and being outside. She is one of my favorite people to spend time with during the day. And I am glad since we spend so much time together! It is a blessing, a privledge and a joy to be Kadence's mom.
The Lord has grown me in Him through parenting and through my marriage and I am grateful. It is an honor, a blessing and a joy to be Daniel's wife. But first and foremost, I am delighted and blessed to have a relationship with Jesus - to be His Beloved.
I didn't say that any of this was easy - but it helps when you work from an attitiude of graitude.
Bloom where your planted.
Rejoice in all things.
Give thanks in all things.
Quick update:
Kadence is 15 months. She is in the 90th percentile for both height and weight.
She amazes me everyday with what she knows. She is mimicing our words. She likes to help out with cleaning and feeding the chickens. It's the process! She enjoys music and being outside. She is one of my favorite people to spend time with during the day. And I am glad since we spend so much time together! It is a blessing, a privledge and a joy to be Kadence's mom.
The Lord has grown me in Him through parenting and through my marriage and I am grateful. It is an honor, a blessing and a joy to be Daniel's wife. But first and foremost, I am delighted and blessed to have a relationship with Jesus - to be His Beloved.
I didn't say that any of this was easy - but it helps when you work from an attitiude of graitude.
Bloom where your planted.
Rejoice in all things.
Give thanks in all things.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Glad!!
to be here. . . .
just thought I'd type something since it's been a while since I updated the blog. Would've typed a bit longer but I got a baby - er, toddler! - that just woke up.
Lord bless you!
just thought I'd type something since it's been a while since I updated the blog. Would've typed a bit longer but I got a baby - er, toddler! - that just woke up.
Lord bless you!
Friday, June 24, 2011
Something to blog about
A little off the topic of adoption and parenting.
This week, I feel like, the Spirit revealed to me how anxious and full of worry I am.
I am still working through this one as I have been praying and asking for a deeper awareness of this and how to let Him change me here. It is amazing how absolutely up tight and irrational I have been. I think a lot of it is a root of not trusting God FULLY. Submission vs. Surrender. Curiosity vs. Obsession.
I know that in this life, for the most part, I am not going to 'get it right' or get it together.
So, to explain better, I have noticed a well worn path of worry in my thoughts that I am going to call the worry train (started out as chain but I think train is more appropriate as it is a goober to try to stop). Here is my for example. I was reading in Matthew 6 and Jesus asks "Why worry about clothes?" Ok, so I thought about this for a minute. Clothes. Cost money that we don't have. Takes time to figure out how to buy with baby in tow. Money again. Should I be looking for a part time job? How would I do that with KO? Where would I work? and on and on switching tracks constantly from clothes to money to job and into all sorts of random things. These series of thoughts can continue on for days - distracting me from REAL LIFE. Stealing my intimacy with my family, friends and, most importantly, with the Lord. When I am aware of this train making it's way through my brain, I can feel the tension and stress in my shoulders and back. My breathing is so shallow, I have to wonder if I am breathing at all.
This realization also lead me to the fact that I am very concerned about what other's think about me and I suffer from peoplepleaseritis more than I would like to admit. This also makes for more areas for worry to creep into my life. And I am just so sick of all this worry and grief. Anxiety has clogged my life up so much lately but I am so glad that our Lord is so much bigger than all of that.
While I was reading a child's version of Psalm 23, I just broke down in tears this morning and relief swept over me. How amazing to look up from being so absolutely lost, stuck, and injured to see your Shepard standing there coming in for the rescue.
I think I will be focusing on the well-cared for birds of the air and the well-dressed flowers and know that the Lord is my provider - always has been and always will be. And I will just ask Jesus to continue to grow me through this season of life. Thank you Lord!
This week, I feel like, the Spirit revealed to me how anxious and full of worry I am.
I am still working through this one as I have been praying and asking for a deeper awareness of this and how to let Him change me here. It is amazing how absolutely up tight and irrational I have been. I think a lot of it is a root of not trusting God FULLY. Submission vs. Surrender. Curiosity vs. Obsession.
I know that in this life, for the most part, I am not going to 'get it right' or get it together.
So, to explain better, I have noticed a well worn path of worry in my thoughts that I am going to call the worry train (started out as chain but I think train is more appropriate as it is a goober to try to stop). Here is my for example. I was reading in Matthew 6 and Jesus asks "Why worry about clothes?" Ok, so I thought about this for a minute. Clothes. Cost money that we don't have. Takes time to figure out how to buy with baby in tow. Money again. Should I be looking for a part time job? How would I do that with KO? Where would I work? and on and on switching tracks constantly from clothes to money to job and into all sorts of random things. These series of thoughts can continue on for days - distracting me from REAL LIFE. Stealing my intimacy with my family, friends and, most importantly, with the Lord. When I am aware of this train making it's way through my brain, I can feel the tension and stress in my shoulders and back. My breathing is so shallow, I have to wonder if I am breathing at all.
This realization also lead me to the fact that I am very concerned about what other's think about me and I suffer from peoplepleaseritis more than I would like to admit. This also makes for more areas for worry to creep into my life. And I am just so sick of all this worry and grief. Anxiety has clogged my life up so much lately but I am so glad that our Lord is so much bigger than all of that.
While I was reading a child's version of Psalm 23, I just broke down in tears this morning and relief swept over me. How amazing to look up from being so absolutely lost, stuck, and injured to see your Shepard standing there coming in for the rescue.
I think I will be focusing on the well-cared for birds of the air and the well-dressed flowers and know that the Lord is my provider - always has been and always will be. And I will just ask Jesus to continue to grow me through this season of life. Thank you Lord!
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